big again

so they lined up for almost five hours? and yet in vain! they couldn't even get near the gates cos it's raining hard. the weather! it was torture.. argh.. my disease! it's killing me. argh. the pain. it's rising from my feet to my calf.. why do i have to suffer? and then, there i was, struggling amidst chaos and lunatics screaming for dear life... but i wasn't able to enter. i didn't have any pass. i felt little. i wanted to have that something so little, so i can be big again.