i am miss undaunted

senxa

2007-12-25T19:27:00.000+08:00

yeah. i know. it's boring. so bear with it. hehe..

mabuhay!

2007-12-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

have you been reading my blog? i figured it's alien to you. now, don't ask your mom to translate it okay cos i don't know what it will cost me. just so you know i'll write my posts in your tongue. if. ever. i. have. the. time. soon. ciao.

mcdodong

2007-09-07T11:25:00.000+08:00

nakakatawa talaga. haha. ano na bang nangyari sa mga estudyante ng atinyo? wala na ba silang magawa kundi magsaksakan na lang at magsuntukan dahil sa pag-ibig, pera at sex? at meron pa! may mga wanted pa na pinaghahanap ng mga pulis. kriminal ba sila? pobreng mga bata. tawa na lang ako nang tawa. ano na naman kaya ang mangyayari bukas o sa makalawa? baka may magbigti o tumalon sa finster? wahaha.. saya.

fiyeeesta!

2007-08-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

walam pasok kasi pista sa atinyo. pero drawing lang ako nang drawing. kasi umabsent ako last week. sunud-sunod pa. checkout the whorse's page na lang. hehe..

YUchub

2007-07-20T13:35:00.000+08:00

ahm.. yu. yu light up ma life. yu. yu. hahaha.. i lab yu chub.

biente

2007-07-20T13:17:00.000+08:00

oo. magkamukha sila konti. actually, magkaulo sila. kasi mga letsugas pawang skinhead. wala na ba silang alam na hairdo? kaso magkaiba sila ng ugali. siguro. di ko naman kasi sila kaclose. mga engot. mamatay na mga bangag. mamatay na mga sawi. aaahh. toink. am dead. hehehe...

banig

2007-07-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

ewan ko kum bakit si jenny bahaghari nasasabi nya instead na banaag diwa. bakit jen? maselang bahaghari ba pumapasok sa utak mo? anyway, hindi ko ineexpect talaga lang ha. kasi one or two years ago pa ata kasi yun due. nahihiya nga ako sa mga bata kasi napagkalat ko na alias ko. what a shame. argh.

2007-07-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

im back. been two months or so. last time i did this t'was the year of the stick-o. whatever happened to the values of humanity. the animosity. hello kitty. cant type in at the title box. damn it.

through the wire

2007-05-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

weird. when i'm home, i don't wanna be there. if i'm not there like right now, i just wanna be there.haay. life.

bored of election inspectors

2007-05-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

oo. bored sila. at magboboard na rin. flight nila bukas. they're off to cebu. bumalik kayo ha at sana pagtawag nyo sabihin nyong: tay! ihanda ang lechon!

bobotante ako

2007-05-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

first time voter. may 14, 2007. precinct 1819 C. barangay cabantian. second district. davao city. davao del sur. pilipinas.

indelible ink

2007-05-14T16:38:00.000+08:00

im here in an ordinary cheap looking internet cafe. nakikirenta ng paupahang unit kasi walang connection sa bahay, wala rin naman akong access today kasi wala nga namang office diba kasi halalan. gusto ko ipakita daliri ko pero di talaga akong sanay gumamit ng web cam para kumuha ng litrato pero i think nahanap ko na. wish me luck.

nakatikim ka na ba ng mayo katorse?

2007-05-14T16:08:00.000+08:00

bday ni johnson. galit ako sa kanya dahil hindi sya tumupad sa usapan. ang usapan ay usapan. bakit nya di sinunod ang napagkasunduan? kum bakit kasi di ako makaafford ng lang kwentang tsinelas ng mga ungas eh. gusto ko lang naman masubukang makasuot ng 1000 na experience pampaa.

kyro's dump

2007-05-11T16:03:00.000+08:00

next time na lang.

nuvo

2007-05-11T16:00:00.000+08:00

i want a new life. a new account. a new haircut. a new me. anew. bili na. sa malapit na suking mga avon na tindahan. wah.

harvesting

2007-05-11T15:43:00.000+08:00

i sow, i shall reap. mamya reaping time na with ate april. gagawa kaming library. try ko ring nakawin yung latest edition. (*fingers crossed*)

eick

2007-05-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

im with mcoy. sa kalasag. ang bagong eic. generous sya. pinagamit nya ako kay kathy. i miss kathy. the resident imac. pero may katunggali na sya. may bagong unit. mas maputi, mas maraming features pero kay kathy pa rin ako. die hard fan kasi ako ni bob ong. pero di na ngayon.

shield on

2007-04-21T15:04:00.000+08:00

here. hear?

abril

2007-04-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

my first entry for the month of avril labane.

beach babes

2007-03-31T07:05:00.000+08:00

si mario talaga ang may pakana nito. di ba obvious? siya ang nasa unahan. hehehe..
(mario, jose, me, shiela, mai-mai, thea, ced. not in the pic: shud-shud and cory)

stuff and more stuff

2007-03-31T06:50:00.000+08:00

hekhek... i'm still in gensan. 3rd day ko na to. kahapon ang haba-haba ng araw ko. hehehe.. pumunta nga kaming japan. mamya sa pluto na ulit. tas balik asteroid belt.

cory's crib

2007-03-30T06:21:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. laag na sad mi. two weeks ago nasa panabo, ngayon gensan. wooooaaah... sunod sultan kudarat (i think). aw.. dili diay. we're planning to stay sa big ligid this weekend then ang saya saya!

aftermath

2007-03-25T16:11:00.000+08:00

pwede na ring afterchem. kasi chem naman talaga yung exam ko. graduate na sila toool. ako nagpaiwan. i like staying eh. tas pati yung kantang stay ni lisa loeb. naeebs ako pare. sobra. alis nako.

araw ng kayamanan

2007-03-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

defense ko 45 minutes from now. at me hangover ako. pati na rin hang-ups sa buhay. dagdagan mo pa ng kahangalan sa pag-ibig sa tinubuang lupa.

orobre

2007-03-05T13:25:00.000+08:00

nandyan ako. nandyan din sya. hanapin nyo kami.

bagong buhay

2007-02-28T18:42:00.000+08:00

oo. me bago akong buhay. oo. bakit bah.

bedspacer

2007-02-28T18:35:00.000+08:00

nakakatuwa. dalawang weekend na ring di ako umuuwi ng bahay. kakaiba talaga yung feeling. kaya nga hinahanap-hanap ko. anyabang ko kasi mapera ako sa mga panahong yun. kaso pag wala na, san na kaya ako pupulutin. ang mas nakakatuwa, may kasama ako. di yung tipong makikita mong magsusuot sa mga lugar na sing walang kwenta ng mga taong tambay dun. mas may malaking posibilidad pa na makikita mo sya sa bundok, naglilinis ng sirang kagubatan.

anak kung anak

2007-02-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

eksakto dalawang linggo nung di ako lumabas ng bahay kakagawa ng project, writeups, articles, lab reports at kung anu-ano pa para makalimutan ang araw kung saan tumotoma ang mga nawalan ng trabaho, ng anak, ng apo, ng diyos. nakalimutan na ata ako. kasi naman ako e. ewan ko ba.

right

2007-02-18T15:53:00.000+08:00

time for the holidays for me!

kathy

2007-02-13T11:12:00.000+08:00

bakit cathy na si kathy? im at my usual spot in kalasag. waalam pasok eh. college days. tambay na muna ako. tas bale, alam na ng tropa dito sa annuals. sayaaaa naman i think.

a good life

2007-01-14T20:20:00.000+08:00

*nainis nga ako nung napanood ko yung trailer ng a good year starring russell crowe. kako namaaaaaaaan. naunahan pako sa title ah. pero okay lang. sa bagay, kaibigan ko naman si pareng russell, i could spare some word play for him. tsaka, balik na rin lang ako sa boring at usual na year ender entry ko sa public trash kong journal of the decade. so eto na... walang ko-corrupt! ng file ko! siyet! talaga namang mga virus na yan o!

for benja, i'm so sure it was you that i saw. couldn't deny it. your eyes said it all. whatever happened to us i don't know. for gemma and our sporadic meetings to overthrow the government and rebuild the empire which was long gone. for my crap and my lies including what was mentioned before this. i'm no superproxy.

for koi and the katipunan mutiny. a camp out is still a camp out even without hotdogs on sticks and mallows on the roast. for the tres mujeres, tingting on goth fingernails, who went out their way, buried their soul to the ground just so that we could afford a 950 million experience. for ken and our time at the annex. chocolate's great but i'm just not a big fan of cakes. for our waiting at the sidewalk gutters in front of a private state university for ken's specific ride of a jeepney because of his fractured leg.

for apol and her generous heart. for helping me get through and keeping me intact at my lowest this year. for my end of the schoolyear crisis. for not going home in almost a week. for bong and our wee hour adventures in the city with ian. for our island tour to get away from insanity and reality with red on the front. for vic and my first try at job hunting. for the rejection that followed.

for my time at the annuals and the commission. for coise, myka, ian fel, nites and nathan, my editors. for my batchmates april, ina, jaypee, alvin, lani, star and may. for those who followed, winston, george and jog. for jette, the last one standing. for mitty, jame, mark, marlo and richard, we were the originals. for the fill ins and the succeeding group, maya, halley, vernice, meilene, mims, aron, mj, maricone and the others. for screwing my dream of overcoming my frustration to study at the country's finest, even just for summer.

for the experience to be in another dimension of unparalleled freedom and serenity which i intend not to be explicit about it by no means. so there. for going back and still having a home in the island. for not another ordinary day passing by and ending. for tanya remembering.
for gab and the rest of the gang. for my six day class schedule including waking up in the morning which was always a bummer. for the mango juice served by marco at the bar. for hanna and her emotional outbreak on a street next to the jeepney stop due to her teacher's scrutiny and mockery of an allegedly mistaken report.

for rediscovering time because of no prior engagements during faculty retreat. for our bs time and learning to read the book again where real people existed even before time was known. for pacquiao and him winning the title against larios. the latter i found to be a good fighter, smiling in defeat.

for fitting in and knowing the class which i should have been part of. there's more to a pretty face and a good name than meets the eye. for seeing life in lifeless animals at the city slaughterhouse. for establishing rapport with the director and the program officers. for this year's fiesta. it sucked having to fall in line again.

for another death in the family. for nanay katang and her stories being a student. she was true blue too just like lola. for para and the pressures in it - moving exam, review sessions, drawing and scribbling moments and practicum requirement.

for do or die exams. for sleepless nights trying to recuperate system failures brought about by the sudden change in mind setting. for a sembreak completely devoted to finishing service hours, volunteer work and whole lot more of pain in the ass tasks. for vic and another shot at life. for acing the interview and not coming back after. for refusing a life on the go. for drinking and eating fire with mental patients. for jose's tip that's worth publishing. i bet it would sell like hotcakes, a million copies sold of a bestseller.

for having a 12 unit load and being happy unattached. for sarah, yana and our lunch grubs at a nearby decent diner slash bakeshop which i gave them the liberty of ordering food for me in advance since i just have 10 minutes to eat, excluding going up and down the building to attend classes. for sandra and our occasional encounter at the same place, eating tapa, tocino, beef steak and whatever that's in the menu. for going all the trouble to become a registered voter which was no trouble at all considering what everyone had gone through, sweat and hell. i could just hide my evil snicker at those for not being in the know. for spending saturdays at buding's in toril watching dvds with my highschool buds.

for a great play staged to heal Bud Dahu and its people. for awit elims that was great. i saw my friends, classmates and friends' classmates performed. for kyro and him picking me over his new found friends. trust me, i didn't want that to happen. it was just awkward being with an ex-crush and his girl. for traveling the world again with my senses. this time, i went to czech republic, the netherlands, portugal, sweden and of course spain. simon was the best. euthanasia is forever debatable. for beni and jun-jun coming home from foreign lands. for ma'am edel, elaine, winston and ralp, you didn't give me the chance to bring in my share. for chris and our time at palma playing minero with a certain norman. for choo choo train and banana split that gave me a tummy ache after. for jace and pils. both of whom got on the jeep to bring me home. for marchen and her being in solid spirit. for her father who died in his sleep. for her sister in the operating room. for sheila who met an accident. for us coming to check if she was okay. for joan, denise and i, our plan to spend the holidays at the fosters. sad thing it didn't push through. for my tradition on its sixth year existence. for norman and his bash before the year officially ends.
i wish that i'd be able to do this again next year. soon. 365 and a quarter days. that's a whole lot to expect. but right now, i'm okay with this.

wan han red

2007-01-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

anak ng. kung kelan pa ok na sana ang internet connection. nagloko naman ang flash drive ko. you know? my ever reliable 3 1/2 floppy disk. putik naman o. sa tinagal-tagal na bitbit ko yung pagka-pagkaimportanteng bagay sa neknek kong buhay, aba, akalain mong missing in action! kasi naman no sa dami-dami na naming napuntahang net cafes para lang makapasok sa leche leche flang internet connection na yan, naiwan ko na tul0y at di ko na maalala. bwisit na buhay o. whatever. duh. at plano ko pa naman sana yung entry ko sa bagong taon eh ika-100 ko. tse ne len talaga!

pasko ngayon

2006-12-25T19:59:00.000+08:00

close ang netopia. alangya. pasko. dito kami sa click er s. alangy a. si ra eh. bale., ob yus naman sig uro. kasama ko si mah tsin. oo. panay d akdak naman sa love life ng me mga buh ay. ah ew an.

urine sample

2006-12-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

hindi naman kasi sinabi kung ilang mililiter ang ibibigay. kaya pinuno ko yung plastic container. ayaw nila nang ganun? eh pag pumalpak, marami pa silang sample diba? diba naman? tas mainit talaga pala yung ihi. kaya naman pala pag umihi ka sa dagat, malalaman ng katabi mo.

crop rotation

2006-12-02T13:50:00.000+08:00

dont really know what to write. am drained. shoot.

18-month warranty halloween special

2006-11-11T12:00:00.000+08:00

6.oo woke up to the usual setup of the house. mother's gone to the other part of the village for some living to do. am still in bed. brother's out of sanity again. father. father who? ah. that which snores at the other room. i think.

6.30 still deciding to get out of bed or not.

7.00 managed to move into the living room. the dining's an inch away from the sala. catching the rays of the sun as they burrow down my skin peeping through our windows. the feel of the cool wood is a precursor to cold water. still deciding to get into the bathroom.

8.00 after an hour. ETD. estimated time of departure from the cr. so much has happened. from inside, i had already thought of how my day would go about.

8.30 realized that time flies quickly. and later remembered i had to meet vic in less than an hour.

9.00 panic at this time was ineffable. well, quite. grace under pressure's an understatement. but i know vic always waits. so i took my time.

9.45 just before i got out of the vehicle, i already spotted him. no doubt about it. his nose was all that mattered. t'was his signature. (i hope he gets to read this before he throws himself to jail due to infraction of the law and rule of conduct) i need not explain my side. i just smiled. t'was all that mattered. he forgave me.

10.00 we went inside the university. he was familiar alright because he was once with the league. a year ago. before he ditched his scholarshi*. he didn't owe me any explanation. i understood. we exchanged darting looks. i knew. the things that bothered him we kept out of distance. including those who were so-called "people".

10.05 we saw joel at the finance. about to make payments for his entry. falling in line by seating in a row of chairs under the comfort of a big tent. that's the kind of bureaucracy we have in this university. are we so proud or what? lovin' it. lucky me, i don't get to pay. or should it be rather, poor me? saw a classmate i wanted to avoid but heck had to say hi for reasons of coexistence and eventuality.

10.15 had to validate my ID. same type of falling in line. the difference? the venue. and we're not supposed to feel any inconvenience or else we have to take it against the administration for plundering our, er.. their money.

10.20 vic and i went to the near cybercafe for printing. got the prototype. i remembered this was what i had seven months ago. crossed my fingers. i hoped this time, it would work.

10.30 we went to the building. i was having second thoughts already because i was never used to this. much more to our dismay, vic can't no longer be in it.

11.05 i was almost finished doing the papers when vic finally gathered his courage to ask about some technicalities in the requirements. the guard just handed the form for him to fill out. we were hopefuls once again.

11.25 i urged vic to do it fast cos i didn't want to be caught in between the lunch period. because. that meant waiting. time wasted. not to mention, we had no money for us to take ourselves out to lunch. yet the guards called in we had to be back at 1pm cos it was already cut off time. can't take us up or else they'd be the ones to answer to the superiors. and so we left our case. uhm. yeah. left. cos we had to get back at 1pm, right?

11.40 we left the station. we wanted to get a ride but we couldn't afford it. so we walked the hot streets to get inside a big freezer.

11.55 we arrived and made ourselves at ease by cooling down our body temperatures with the airconditioning blown by the numerous big boxed fans. but we're still hungry short from our morning doings. i did have money but it has been appropriated for payments long overdue. but what do we do? we couldn't be back with empty stomachs because that would lead to empty heads. we know what food does for the body, right? and consequently, we know what it doesn't do.

12.00 shelled out my money with certain conditions i made with vic. so we got ourselves a deal. he has got to pay when he's received his dole out from abroad. it was sweet. we had fun except for the queer idea we were stalking a couple because wherever we went, they were there too. weird. and this is how you spell it, moron.

12.35 finished with our sumptuous lunch that's out of my pocket. we had our share of spills and vic almost turned blue for lack of oxygen when he was out of air from laughing too much. i wiggled and jiggled my feet for minutes because i couldn't help being hysterical when he had his "moments". the definition of such being quoted is subject to the readers point of view if and if only the reader has a POV to begin with! if none, you lose a turn.

12.55 we reached our destination and by this time, we managed to pay our fare because we rather ride the jeep than pay the price of having skin cancer soon. besides, we were up for an interview. saw a familiar face. and she has a name too. what's a cum laude doing here? shouldn't she be washing someone else's arse at some point in the universe? peace. i'm being harsh.

1.00 so the guards gave us the signal. we logged in and deposited our things. no cellphones. i said damn. if there were robbers around the area and someone tipped them off that everyone's phones were being kept under the drawers, then the bad guys would have celebrated an earlier retreat cos it'd be an easier task, a collaborative effort at that. but they still hadn't entered the building yet. think about that. and this would be because apparently the company's so tight with security.

1.05 after a flight of stairs since the elevators were for superior employees only, which i would later understand why as i run through the minutes of this history, both of us were seated and were preparing for the big event.

1.10 we were aghast, at the same time excited but nervous. well, that was just me. vic's a pro at this kind of sh*t. yeah. that. so, the ripper finally called me in first and i was about to die.

1.40 what happened there was between me and the ripper, the pregnant soft-hearted soft-spoken ripper.

1.45 i was waiting for vic outside. i thought how come his meeting was longer. was i lucky for having the pregnant soft-hearted soft-spoken ripper or was it the other way around? but then, what happened back there was all that mattered, including what she had to say. and here's the big catch: most of the sups were aged-old pregnant women in their early or mid 30s. talk about special treatment! i'm talking bout the elevator arrangements.

1.47 saw a familiar face again but this time it was real family. t'was ate sandy. and i had a lot of questions that need to be addressed by her. plus, the one which had church bells in it.

2.00 so vic finally came through it. i introduced them with each other, said bye and we went our way down the building. claimed my bag and cellphone at the counter and it was then when vic narrated his incident. turned out, his ripper was disappointed for wasting vic's time because honesty is still best for babies up to two years. and he was twenty. called him crazy for throwing away a winning ticket. said he was too sissy to cash it in. it was a fuckin insult that i got in and he dint. he was my mentor doug!

2.10 so we went our way to the hot streets again and into the big freezer where we were supposed to make another shot at life. well, vic did. i was just accompanying him, making sure he won't do anything stupid like jumping off from a building nose flat on the ground, (i hope he really gets to read this) and doing my job description as a friend, through thick and thin my arse.

2.15 then we got in big freezer's branch cybercafe. t'was the same as the one we have just outside the university's gates. unfortunately, they didn't offer the service we needed as that which the one just outside the university's gates did.

2.25 so we were off to that cybercafe just outside the university's gates for some boob job. and regretfully as they sounded, they had ran out of 4R photo paper. what they got is a 30 million pesos 16 piece package that's worth the trouble. but i said save the trouble, we know no trouble. so we just got ourselves logged in cos vic's got an idea and i got the means baby. thanks to some skill in cropping pictures using AP, it's the same for paint i think.

2.35 paid the rent and we were headed to kodak just across the building's facade from where we were.

2.40 so there. with some adjustments done by the lady free of charge that i's so sure she's my cousin's sister-in-law in the future but i rather not discuss about it since it's too personal i guess i rather keep my mouth shut. i made vic ask the lady if i could change because the white blouse that i wore was just a front, a ploy, an act. it wasn't me. yeah. like duh. it was me alright. just had to change because my extra shirt would spoil if i didn't use it. cos it has an expiration date that needed to be taken cared of.

2.50 we were at the the last tip of the triangle that's in the heart of the city and if you guess this right then you're probably a true blue demonyo, er dabawenyo. clue: pasalubong depot. well, that's a give away!

3.00 we were deciding what was next cos our money's short and we didn't have anymore options. well, he didn't. he thought of going at elland's place but i shrugged the idea cos we can't afford to be there if she wasn't there. and besides, i ran out of load so there's no way we could check if she was there. so vic made some calls which i took part in making one. we were to go at raffy's house. i haven't met raffy but i knew him from the stories vic told me about. it was still so hot and i was dehydrated cos i haven't been able to drink any fluid since we took our lunch at the big freezer. to countercheck, scroll up to 12.00 nn.

3.05 then i saw a girl holding ice candies that's the sight of an oasis in a desert. i wanted to ask her where she bought those but i was too weak to even open my mouth, feared that when i open it, the more my body fluids would transpire. so i told vic what i saw. so it was proven inevitable that i had to open my mouth after 5 seconds of thinkng i shouldn't open it. vic made his way into the store and i din't know how he made it since there was no sign posted they were selling refreshments. it was inconspicuous from the sidewalk. later, vic was scolded lightly for not closing the door after him. i followed him through the store and we sat for a few minutes while enjoying the feel of cold flavored ice in our mouths. but then we decided to get back at track and left our posts at the store. we made another call at the nearby telephone booth to ask for directions. vic originally had somewhere else to go. he had to look for a job as an information personnel of some sorts. what was funny about this job of his was that he just saw its ad posted somewhere in St. Peter's square.

3.20 it wasn't hard locating the landmark the receptionist i was talking on the phone gave me. since the jeepney driver directly drove us to it. what was hard was deciphering what she said in between her first and last words. i could only make out the words behind the market and in front of whatever marketing that was. but in the end, we still found ourselves at the office slash apartment door of the alleged hiring agency. we both exchanged disgusted looks and we couldn't believe what we were seeing and engaging. well, it was just vic who was actually engaging himself to a scam. i warned him what he was trying to get himself in. i really felt it was one of those pyramiding or networking scams i had seen on tv where police had stings to nail the scoundrels. then they jail 'em.

3.25 less than five minutes, and we were out of sight. i couldn't stand the sight, much more the smell of that place. it was pitiful! now, i'm exaggerating. anyhow, we got out of the dungeon after vic handed his resume. the nerve when one the lady behind the table asked for his application letter! the added as fast as a machine gun he was to be back on i-din't-get-what-she-said-because-the-air-waves-were-still-traveling-into-my-ears-when-my-brain-completely-gave-up. and so, we continued walking. made our way into the crowd. rode the tricycle. and poof! no. we didn't became koko crunch but i could tell my stomach needed crunching and munching. and wrenching? yeah. more like it.

3.45 i think that was the time. i'm just estimating by the way. we reached our destination. the place was familiar. but i had never been there. we walked a couple meters. from the main road, we turned right and then went left into an alley and a little bend on the small trail and we were actually there. we were at raffy's place. did i mention who raffy was? well, he was gladys and elland's classmate in college. gladys was vic's girlfriend. and elland is gladys' friend who's also a friend of vic's. both were my classmates back in high school so that makes us friends too right? and so who's raffy again? after their first ever meeting in school where the three were studying, believe it or not, vic spent the night at raffy's. he stayed there for one night, followed by another, then a couple of weeks turned months. i din't know what charm vic had on them. everyone just loved him. i can sense he was always welcomed to stay. he had a special place in that sweet home of theirs. i was just delighted to be there. raffy offered snacks which we didn't refuse. i drank five glasses of iced tea. think about that!

5.30 we stayed for over an hour. but we eventually had to go to our next stop. we got what we went there for. we got what we needed. we rode the jeep that led us to the POblacion. we headed off to elland's.

6.10 she called herself Lady Princess Elland Silverman Silverstone Lee Rich, aka BP as in Booba Princess. but for me, she was more than what she could ever place in her last names. i coined her the Lady of Midnight Boulevard. she deserved it. we went there for yet another reason driven by ulterior motives. we couldn't help it. after seven long years, i was going to the house of the one-who-must-be-named. we passed a Secret of Garden themed pathway. i couldn't believe it, not with my own eyes. i was standing in front of lady princess elland's humble abode.

6.15 it took a while to disturb the princess from her preoccupation. apparently, she was fixing pipes, painting walls and carpentering old cabinets. so we got down to business. vic was the spokesperson. i was merely an extra outfit.

6.20 we walked the streets. i was just humbled by the experience. here i was, walking with the prince of thebes and the princess of genovia de pravia. after crossing an intersection, down the beaten path of cement, i saw the junction where we had to go in. i thought for some time, everything's just going well, not as planned or expected, but as spontaneous as it could be when suddenly someone grabbed me by the arm. i wanted to scream but i managed to control my shriek because there was something weird with the way the hand gripped me. it didn't feel like i was being snatched or something. it was though as if the hand wanted to catch my attention. and it did! i just realized that the hand belonged to an old classmate. both elland and i screamed his name at the same time. it was oscar. it was so ancient since i last saw him. vic was quite displaced when the three of us started talking about the past and the current things, situations and people. we learned from oscar how one classmate turned NPA became insurgent. it was unlikely of him. i never heard any of his political inklings. we learned why one classmate in the name of joel died due to bad health conditions. i never knew about it till now. he was in good physical shape. we learned, but did we really? or did we just hear it and considered it part of history? it was a happy encounter but painted a dreary image in my heart. sad to know how unfortunate and unfavorable for some life went. that second year in high school was one of the best years of my life. it taught me one simple rule: existence precedes meaning. we exchanged numbers and left.

6.35 before we could even reached the doorstep, vic had already asked where rey was. the lady told us he was at the cemetery cleaning the old folks' niches. i din't really know if it was rey's mother or aunt. i couldn't make my mind. i wasn't really big on details. yeah right. said we'd be back.

6.40 reached the place where we were treated like celebrities, given movie offers and asked for autotographs. for the amount of? about 30 pesos each worth of pork barbecue, soup, unlimited rice and a pitcher of cold water. and what was so good about it? elland was paying. i didn't shell out a single dime. neither did vic. what was so outstanding about this moment was that we were so privileged to be witnessing a real live sole survivor of the ozone disco tragedy back in the mid 90s. the verdict? we couldn't afford the dole out. we got up from our chairs, left and headed back to rey's.

6.45 rey was there alright but had to take a bath first. after 10 years of waiting, he still wasn't ready. i got up and went near the cr. since i heard some splashing inside, i shouted something silly at rey not knowing that it was her lola doing her thing. i was kinda embarrased but i assured myself she din't hear a word i said. remember the five glasses or more iced tea from raffy's? and the additional pitcher of cold water from dinner? what did i get? right. a urinary bladder ready to burst anytime! so i took a leak and felt rejuvinated for the longest time in a day.

7.10 we were seated at the entrance of rey's family's eatery. we had soda to keep the talk from running dry. we talked about many things from vic's nose to his new found love interest. everything in between's for us to know. you need a password to get in.

9.00 elland had to leave. the princess would turn into a pumpkin-eating frog if she wasn't in time for the airing of the lotto sweepstakes. besides, all of her clan texted like crazy to remind her of the curfew. so she still didn't get away with the curse. she was still under her granny's spell. too bad.

10.00 had to leave. i just felt i had to. i don't know if it was the rain that made my muscles cramped in the cold or i remembered i still had a home to report to. i choose the latter.

10.05 so the two boys went with me as i waited for my ride. vic got on first the moment he spotted the long jeepney because the routes in their place were few and rare. it was already late,i opted for a front seat in a small vehicle so no one could disturb me. i was quite particular with my ride.

10.10 i just saw njl. a young architect by profession. two years ago, he passed the board and got his licensure. he was a classmate in sociology during my freshie days. i saw him first. then he saw me. he got on the jeepney i was riding. to my surprise, he sat behind the front seat where i was. we talked. about me having no boyfriend and me asking where was his girlfriend. he smelled of alcohol. and i ignored it. but he was bold to say he was out drinking since two in the afternoon and was sobering up for hours before finally deciding to come home. he asked for my number and i easily succumbed to his request. he miscalled me as if to say save it.

10.35 he got off the jeep and i watched him as he walked. he looked at me, half smiling, the other half's just lost in space. i knew it was the alcohol working.

10.40 the jeep continued to move. everything was just too good to be true to be happening. i felt a tinge of happiness surround me.

torn shirt

2006-10-31T14:54:00.000+08:00

did i jinx it? i bet the touch from the torn shirt made everything possible. but i am shutting up now because i may end up jinxing it, in the end.

cry of mt. luthswana

2006-10-30T11:30:00.000+08:00

he wore but his face into the crowd and they loved him much. i don't know what's gotten into him. he mistook the feelings for a free trade in the pants. boy, i don't know what's gotten into him. some days i hate him, some days i don't. some days i see him, some days i hide. but i don't usually know him. since when did he become mine?

toss a coin and lose a turn

2006-10-30T11:22:00.001+08:00

since when did genetics became part of botany? i know i know. they're interrelated. and at some degree, they would eventually meet, right? but, why in the world would the final test constitute genetics more than the subject description itself? we're totally srewed up. he is. we'll, i still love him. that bozo with his cynics sure is a done deal to me. i was even guilty when some craze message circulated that he was dead. but he's still breathing. poor him.

october 24th

2006-10-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

it was somebody's birthday i dare not mention. i said to myself, swore to my own grave even that i wouldn't, at any rate, give in to peer pressure. but i totally busted. turns out, i got myself rubbing some leaves afterwards for that lasting feel. my friend's professional advice was a sure hit. i went home guiltily as ever but what the heck. i'm twenty.

jobstreet

2006-10-30T11:12:00.000+08:00

i think am gonna find me a job that's worth the pain in the ass so that i could fly me to the moon and back and so that i could buy myself a decent life and a crampy pad.

too soon

2006-10-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

i've always wanted something yet i couldn't possibly have it. because for some sick reasons, i just couldn't have it. but i guess i have to count on luck to come knocking at my door. yeah. my own door. i want that.

tension reliever

2006-10-25T11:46:00.001+08:00

di ko sana gagawin yun. kaso sabi ko sa sarili ko i deserve a break. kaya ayun... break the rules ang drama.. ok lang naman.. ang saya kahit anim lang kaming naglolokohan.

tension reliever formula: 5 french fries sticks + 5 coke bottles + countless number of glasses filled with experimented fluids

start of the line

2006-09-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

so my mother surprised us, (especiallly ME and that's spelled with three Ls i know)when she got us a line. [buti, natauhan din. hehehe...] so by next week i can do all my stuff without leaving home. i hope i didn't jinx it. (*cross fingers here*)

i don't know how to pull out an icon that shows crossed fingers. poor me.

i take it back

2006-09-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

the thing i wrote before. it was nothing. it's just a case of mistaken identity. so i'm all happy and gay again.

over a bag of chips

2006-09-28T16:33:00.000+08:00

yeah. it's been ancient. so who cares anyway? well, do i really have to feel guilty about it? besides, she never even asked me if she's or if ever... c'mon. stop being a frantic loser myself. get to the point. as you can probably see, which i doubt cos you aren't even here in the first place, i'm affected with such an opportuned time. let me rephrase that: cursed moment. do i really have to stick it out with someone i don't wanna belong to in any league? pathetic. that's my first name. kung bad trip ka, bad trip rin ako. sino bang hindi? naglolokohan ba tayo? pakshet na buhay to o. two weeks na lang matatapos rin to. lubayan mo nako masamang espiritu.

double o seven

2006-09-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

heard this couple of times in grey's anatomy. it means, for the love of God, license to kill. yep. heard it right. i killed a cat. not just a cat, but a mother cat. and what does a mother cat have? right! a baby cat. so i killed a mother cat and a baby cat. what an achievement, right? my teacher should have given me a star. you could just imagine the envy in my classmates' eyes. i killed a cat! not just a cat, but a mother cat! and added to it is a baby cat! wow! now, that's what you call double fun and learning! it even gets more exciting cos we're going to the slaughter house tonight. yep! heard it right again. we'll gonna witness the collaboration in rythmic illustration the power and convergence of the mighty parasites! all that and more in ma-a, davao city, philippines. brought to you by the city pound health care insurance and retirement policy. i looove science.

security of tenure

2006-08-29T12:33:00.000+08:00

bonds are meant to be broken and paid. whether what you have is permanent or not, the point is after the word.

backtrack

2006-08-29T12:32:00.001+08:00

i think i'm gonna have to pass. i know i jinxed it. it was so premature. so silly of me. there was no need to be in a hurry. i only had to wait a hundred years. so before time runs out, i think am gonna go get myself a life first. now where i can buy some?

lost my pace

2006-08-29T12:32:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been living in my backpack. out directly for class in the morning till the afternoon, i return the following day or days and unload my dirty garments. that was the routine. either i go home late or i don't go home at all. at times, i wish i never had to go home and tought times, i wish i never went home.

a long september

2006-08-29T12:24:00.001+08:00

i don't know. but the song just stuck in my head. i remember singing it from inside while i'm waiting for my ride to end. i've been thinking and asking myself for things that i let slipped my hands. right now, i don't know if i made the right thing. what i do know, at that exact moment, i needed to and whatever it was, it brought me here. maybe this year's better than the last.

hydrochloric urine

2006-08-23T14:52:00.000+08:00

i noticed that i've been spending much time, and i mean big time, inside every floor's comfort room. i barely have any idea why im doing it. besides, time is a luxury i cant afford. well, that was before. i think that's the reason why i can stare at my face without actually puking and smile for at least a split second. then one time, while staring blankly at the running water and causing the school's utility bill to inflate for a hundredth time, a classmate in philo entered the rest room. we said hi hellos and she went into one of the cubicles to take a leak i guess. after she was done, we bade farewells and see you speeches. while doing final retouches, i smelled something fishy and ulgky and for no obvious logical reason (yeah right) i peeked into the toilet bowl. good lord! the girl's a walking chemical reagent! i'm wondering if she was the one responsible for the disappearing chemicals. the culprit! that's why the lab staff has been charging us more! i think she took more than the required acid to make her pee yellowish green. well, that's what you get for being around with chemicals too much. you either beat 'em or join 'em. looks like her pee joined the waves of the sea, er toilet flush. i bet it would turn pink if she drank wine with 10% phenol red and 95% ethyl alcohol.

of zebra stripes

2006-08-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

so i was like sitting there. standing maybe. when all of a sudden, i was shocked to see him falling [for me?] nah.. falling in line. hehe.. we like, uhmmm.. stayed in line for about 3 hours. but i could say, t'was all worth it since he was there. *grin* [a very evil grin] hehe... we won! champ for the first time? [i don't know. it's my first official year in my new division so i kinda don't know. fine. i don't know.] hehe.. i should have danced! yeah. like in a million years. if ever we.. cos i would probably.. and he would make me.. -the end-

big again

2006-08-11T19:37:00.000+08:00

so they lined up for almost five hours? and yet in vain! they couldn't even get near the gates cos it's raining hard. the weather! it was torture.. argh.. my disease! it's killing me. argh. the pain. it's rising from my feet to my calf.. why do i have to suffer? and then, there i was, struggling amidst chaos and lunatics screaming for dear life... but i wasn't able to enter. i didn't have any pass. i felt little. i wanted to have that something so little, so i can be big again.

i won't tell

2006-08-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

i just came from my three day retreat with the last night having gone through the sukob sa buhok. whatta experience! kapoy man magstorya. pero.. pramis. one stick is tantamount to one pad. i'd keep my eyes shut as if i didn't see. sayang! what a good way sana to start a friensdhip. over a cup of fire. pwede pahingi?

hoy buloy

2006-08-04T15:03:00.000+08:00

nganong dili nako makita ha? ayusa pa gud nang imong patingog! abi ba nakog graduate ka sa... japan?! naunsa!

natuto na ako

2006-08-04T14:56:00.000+08:00

oo. sobra. natuto na ako. talaga. ang susi sa isang masayang college life ay wag nang mag-aral. especially pag anatomy kasi wala rin lang kwenta. tama ba ako mga friends kong nosi balasi? yosi balani?

ashtray

2006-08-04T14:32:00.000+08:00

so he brought with him a nameless skull that's worth a thousand confessions and a scolding. i couldn't believed it myself. i learned from the other through one of our rare encounters that he has a younger i-don't-know, a sister or a brother, whatever in one of the neighborhood colleges and that the dorsal part of the lowly skull has been jeopardized to become a functional ashtray. guess he smokes, huh? ain't that a surprise? beats me.

san ignacio

2006-07-30T12:58:00.000+08:00

ANI. alay ni ignacio. bunye. walam pasok kasi may sakit yung pangulo. may influenza virus. hindi naman complicated yung strain kasi sabi pa nung especialista sa atay, a.k.a the hepatist, coincidence lang daw na sya yung attending physician. kako, paki ko. basta ba me baon pa rin diba? kasi tatakbo pa ng mga anim hanggang pitong taon bago ako magiging huwaran. pero kahit ngayon huwaran na naman talaga ako. oo. isa akong malaking huwad. huwad na katotohanan. bibili akong sandatahang lakas ng pilipinas kasi kelangan na nam magbabantay sa estatwa ni magellan sa magellan's cross sa cebu kasi mahal na rin yung gitara nakasalampak lang sa may bangkenta dun malapit sa simbahan. halika, bili tayong danggit bai?

pasalamat ka wowen ka

2006-07-30T12:37:00.000+08:00

last time nasa parking lot lang kami sa di ko malamang sulok ng luzon pauwing maynila galing baguio kasi kelangan kung umebak sa burnham park kasi di gumagana yung flush sa may silang st., sta. ana, maynila. tas ngayon nasa borakito na, di ako kasama kasi panay dakdak ko sa life is a great.. ano kamo? tas kumain kami dun sa italianni's masarap yung beer kaso di ko ininom kasi wala akong boses dulot ng pagiging lactose intolerant ko at sa traumang inabot namin sa kamay at kuko ng agila ng makating manggugulang. hay... bakit? saan yung piyesta?

breakfast at tiffany's ulit

2006-07-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

masaya. isang taon na naman ang lumipas. kaya, i love hashbrowns na ulit. how i wish i could get back the notebook. sama talaga. anlabo ng lbc. mali-mali kasi eh. bakit kasi yung pasay hindi na lang naging pasig? tuloy, di umabot.

patingog

2006-07-30T11:38:00.000+08:00

kusga pa ha? kanang mga 400 decibels para makaabot sa ako ang wavelength kay ang color ba dili mureflect sa akong dorso-ventral retina. ana.

party hat

2006-07-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

"bai, walang handa. dinner lang."

pagdating sa tahimik avenue. sa may bakanteng lote.

"ang walang party hat, walang fooood!"

lahat nagsuot. ba naman, kain lang naman diba ang ipinunta namin.

sa mesa: hipon, alimango, bangus na anlaki eh isang tuna fresh from the waters of kabakan, bistek, corned beef na ewan, spaghetti na i'm so sorry plastik ako kung kakainin kita kung katabi mo naman si sebastian the shrimp at bandehadong kanin na i'm so honest dalawang balikan lang ako ng 2 cups of apol's spoon. pramis.

sa kabilang mesa: cake. chocolate cake. bithday cake. leche flan cake. at party tissue. oo yung kulay blue parang mantle para naman color coding diba kahit di ko nakikita talaga ang pagkain ko kasi uulan ata kasi pinakanta ako ng mga walangya kong mga kaklase.

climax/ finale: pabitin. at isang balot lang ang nakuha ko. kasi naman si shud-shud. sinadya. inihulog ang pabitin sa mukha ko. yun tuloy, may scratch ako sa mukha ngayon. bakit ba antanga-tanga ko? o sobrang siba ko lang talga sa jelly ace kaya yun tuloy!

uy! concert ng parokya kinabukasan. at di ako makakapunta kasi si jun-jun nasa maynila. libre ang admission nung mga gumagawa ng barko at eroplano. buy one take two. si ting-ting dadalhin si apol kasi yung boardmate nya toka sya. eh ako? sukob mga kapatid!

enjoy the view

2006-07-29T11:13:00.000+08:00

wala akong naririnig.

bilib rin naman ako sa kanila. wala nga silang makita pero nakaya pa rin nila ang Great Wall of Inglatera. tas me gana pang magjoke yung mga taong animo'y mga unggoy.

p.s. manggunit ta? mananghid pag magjoke sunod. ana.

tongue nana

2006-07-29T10:59:00.000+08:00

so the moment came when i fell for the trap of being coerced to play a couple of balls then suddenly a meteorite came crushing over from the heavens and as it turns out, the galaxy of venus came stumbling the insides of my buccal cavity i lost touch of reality i managed to fake a smile while my tongue bled because of downright mockery.

best wishes

2006-07-23T18:42:00.000+08:00

i was at my best today cos i supposedly had an engagement with someone whom i'm not really sure if she's goin to make it. and yet my socks are not of their best interest today since they have gone astray and gone loose? uhmm. i think loose thread would be the appropriate term here. half of the time i was pulling 'em up so they wont curl down my toes. so that i wouldn't look stupid with big sneakers and no socks. ah! the sensation. it was ugly.

playing on the bench

2006-07-23T17:59:00.000+08:00

ok fine, you had your share. at least you've played. so i'm chicken. i beg to disagree. i look more like a hen. so who cares if i didn't play? who'd blame me if my department's goin to be on the default streak if i didn't show up for like eternity? yeah like the whole department i guess. but besides, the view's good. considering the fact that i'm kinda groggy from last night's lack of sleep. what the heck, i need to experience what it's like to be part of the... what am i suppose to right in here? i don't have a clue anymore. i should be talking about some guy here and all of a sudden i'm way past my bedtime. huh? crap! i should have stayed home!

itching

2006-07-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

hehe.. bakit ata parang pinagkanulo ka ng mga kaibigan mo? bading ka ba? ay naa naman si jima. samok.

cafe valero

2006-07-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

going santol

2006-07-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

nakakaproud talaga e. yung nakikita mo tupa mo naglalakad. nakauniporme. tas me suut-suot na pack bag. parang. parang, maguindanao. kasama nya pa gang nya. mga hoodlum. at sya lider ng mga hoodlum. master mind. nag-aaral din pala sila? ayaw na ba nila ng bayabas kaya nagsasantol na lang sila? teka lang.. napag-alam ba sila sa may-ari o tulad rin kaya ng pastol nila na hinabol dahil nagnakaw ng lansones dun sa kabilang bukid? hay naku.. makasalo na nga lang ng durian.. o eto!

red mcdonald

2006-07-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

ol mcdonald had a farm and bingo was his name-o! B-I-N-G-O eyaeyay-o...

leon

2006-07-20T19:24:00.000+08:00

Kingdom Animalia
Phylum Vertebrata
Class Mammalia
Order Carnivora
Suborder Pinnipedia
Family Lion-Tiger Katol
Genus Kulas Anus
Species bobeta ko tama ba?

zebra vs falcon

2006-07-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

ha? nasaan ang jibra? saan? doon padulong doon sir. the longest jipwire in the entile world. sir mainit po ang ulo ko, enjoy your meal. hindi lahat ng ice malamig. baka punitin ko ang feathers mo para gawing red carpet?

zebra - tsk-tsk. black with white stripes
falcon - hmmm. white with black stain

n.b. i still don't have an animal character for the the holy punk boy

uto-tutot

2006-07-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

ang lagay, nag-hi na nga yung tao bakit me gana ka pang magmatigas? magmayabang? magsaber tooth tiger. baaaaaaaket? kasi kung sinabi mo lang na hinahanap mo si roni ricketts, wala akong pakealam. kaso, dinamay mo pa si princess anastalgia.ayun tuloy, humarurot kang papuntang banyo para mailabas ang tinatagaong anyo. ah ewan.

sportsday

2006-07-12T12:57:00.000+08:00

sa susunod na dalawang linggo, marked your calendars by the way, magkakaroon ako ng panibagong experience. oo. pers taym kung dadalo ng sportsday. wala akong alam sa gagawin dito. ang plano ko lang talaga dumalo at magmuni-muni. nang konti. ang totoo, pupunta ako dahil andun si. ano. may papiyesta daw kasi. andun si mcdo.

aaaaaapol

2006-07-12T12:48:00.000+08:00

eto lunch date ko pag MWs. kasi naman noh ganito talaga pag napag-iiwanan ng panahon. diba bai? ok lang. idol ng buong ChE department sophomore level. hekhek. matinik sa bola. kanya nga andaming pasa.

skinblogs

2006-07-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

tanga-tanga. bwiset naman o. ang katabi ko pa me virus. pano ko makukuha yung codes ng skin? integument na lang kaya? iisa lang ba sila? the skin is the center of the solar system. at hindi ko alam na nasa likod ko sya kaya i wanna thank my sponsors for keepin me fresh all day. p.s. dm's for my eyewear and sonar radiation. wag iiwan ang bag sa itaas ng basurahan, ok!? ang cute kasing tingnan. obyus walang laman.

pile up

2006-07-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

digos boys

i would like to dedicate this song to the panabo boys, digos boys, malita boys and of course to that mlang boy who stole my heart from me. i thank you all. e bakit naman kasi nagkukumpulan kayo sa iisang table o! diba jude? rex, kris at sweetie? san c gaaaaaaaaaab? naman. namention ko na tuloy. kelangan ko na ulit magshift ng course pag nagkataon. tsk tsk... hay ma'am sana naman po next time ayusin nyo life nyo ha? wag yang parang dinadamay nyo kami at aba me gana ka pang magjoke! e sa lecture nga parang not enough vitamins not enough life kayo. tuloy, hindi ko madefine ang adaptive radiation ng vertebrata cephalochordata kang hayup ka maligo ka mon!

st. peter's day sa toril

walam pasok. yan talaga ang pinakapaborito kong bitbit ng katolikong pamantasan e. pag araw ni ganito o ng kesehodang santo, asahan mong karamay mo kama mo. wag na tayong magpakaipokrito! alam ko namang alam mong higit sa dahil kristiyano ka man o anak ni allah e may pinagkauutangan kang loob sa mga santa santita. dapat sana e i have to pay respect to st. peter today pero i respect more myself kaya di na lang. hehe... peace san pedro at sa alaga mong panabong! magkakamabutihan din tayo sa mga susunod na pagkakataon.

it's a date. kitakits

pag-iisipan ko na muna ha? i think kasi magkakasakit ako ngayong linggo at exactly 4.30 pm. pasensya talaga. kasi naman di lang ako sanay na makihalubilo at makapanayam ang mga pinagkapipitaganang mga species.

virus database: database too old!

relaks pare. magmax ka na muna. ok? kalma lang. wag kang magpahalata. baka mapansin nilang wala kang alam. ok lang. sige patuloy lang sa ginagawa mo. wag kang magpahalata. baka mapansin nyang. ehem. basta. patuloy lang. wag kang magpahalatang maling class palang pinasukan mo. bobeta ka palang parasitology dapat to, hindi virology!

urge

eto isa pa. matatawa ka na lang. at mamahanga sa mga pinagsasabi nyang tila gusto nyang imungkahi mo ang dapat gawin ng isang taong gusto lang talagang mapasakanya ang dignidad ng isa pa. para tuloy feel ko guru ako. sabi ko tuloy sa kanya kung pwede ko lang syang igapos habang nilalapa nya yung katawan ng isa, why not? kaso di naman ako si superman at lalong hindi ako si darnang landi ng babaeng haliparot na yun! at tuloy sabi ko.. wag na. masisira image ko. wholesome pa naman ako. parting words ko? tapusin mo muna pag-aaral mo. malapit na. pagkatapos e di tapos na kaya hinay-hanay lang sa paglunok. ng control.

kalye putol

kundi siguro sya kasama ko, malamang me ginawa nako. buti na lang talaga me takot ako sa batas ng kalsada. napadpad kami sa kung saan-saan kakahanap sa kaklaseng sa lahat eh nauna sa amin nang bahagya sa buhay. bakit naman kasi si manong dun kami hinatid? pagkakaalam ko dapat alam ng mga tumutulak at nagpapadyak ang destinasyon ng bawat pasahero nila. pero sige na nga. ok na rin. muntikan na kaming naubusan ng pasensya kasi naubusang load kasama ko. timing namang kumaripas ng takbo si ms. pinaghintay-mo-kami-nang-matagal-pinapak-tuloy-kaming-lamok bago pako nawalan ng ulirat. joke lang yun. hindi ako ganun. lalong di ako nag-iinarte. mamatay na lahat ng nag-iinarte! sa ilalim ng buwan, tumambay kami sa maliit nilang tindahan at dun e nagkwentuhan nang mahaba-habang inuman. dun rin naisalaysay ng suspek ang mga eksaktong kaganapan sa buhay nya. at bahagya mang napasarap, kelangan nang magsara nung tindahan kasi yum bahay nila at yung sari-sari e di iisa. naramdaman ko yun dahil sa hindi naman ako manhid o di kayay nagmamanhid-manhidan kasi sa totoo lang ampaplastik nung mga manhid kala mo bato yun naman pala inuuod rin. at yun na nga. napag-alaman kung tama pa rin ako sa desisyon kong tumiwalag sa dating tropa kasi tulad ng ganitong mga bagay di mo namang inaasahang mangyari dahil kung busy lang talaga ako wala akong panahong mangyari ang mga bagay na tulad na to na mas makabuluhan at may dikta sa damdamin ko. hindi ako nagmamarunong. tae rin naman akong tulad ng mga taeng nagkalat sa kalsada. pero naisip ko, di ko ipagpapalit ang mga ganitong bagay dahil una di naman talaga sila bagay at pangalawa, walang kwenta ang mga makamundong pagnanasa at pagpapakasasa dahil sa huli uuwi ka rin namang mag-isa.

kalye putol kasunod

ayaw ko sanang ganun yung ending ng blog kaso ewan. bugso ng tarantadong damdamin. yung gusto ko sanang tumbukin dun ay ibang bagay kaso as usual nawala ako. wala akong pinapatamaan. kung meron man, sarili ko lang po. hindi to defensive wound kung mararampatin nyo pero ibig ko lang mabigyang linaw ang sarili ko. kung nagkaleche-leche flan man mga buhay natin dahil din to sa atin. walang sisihan. walang turuan. kung masaya man tayo sa buhay natin at kinatatayuan natin, dahil. to. sa. atin. tayo me gawa ng lahat. tayo me karapatang humawak ng kapalaran natin. obligasyon nating maglayag. hindi ko to memorize so please go to page 56 of your ABNKKBSNPLAko. pero sa tulad kong pinaglaruan ng tadhana at wala na rin sa akin yung libro kong yun, sumalangit nawa ang me hawak. pati yung me akda. kundi nyoko maintindihan, mas lalo nako. kung ayaw nyo, di ko naman kayo pinipilit na gustuhin ako. madali akong kausap. just lay your cards straight to me. i can handle it. neknek na english to. bwisit. pinoy ako. pinoy. nagising na lang ako isang araw alam ko na yung sagot, kum bakit. pero nung sumunod na araw, nagising ako at hindi ko na ulit alam kung ano yung sagot, higit pa, kung anuman yung tanong. wala akong masisisi. tama si madam nung sinabi nya don't decide over something when you're up or down, you just can't. maiimpluwensyahin ng damdamin ang desisyon. pero di ba nga kelangan natin yung dalawa? hindi lang puro isip o di lang rin puro puso. siguro naging agnostic nako. kaso di yun ang tamang term. hindi ko mahanap ang katumbas ng agnostic sa pwesto ko. hindi naman kasi diyos ang pinag-uusapan dito, kundi. di ko na ulit matandaan yung tanong. sa mga taong pinaasa ko, nasaktan ko man, nayurakan o kinasusuklaman ako, sa puntong to wala na akong pwede pang maisasambit sa inyo. suko na ako. dito na muna ako habang inaalam ko pa yung tanong.

meow

bakit yung artist magiging teacher? actually, pwede naman talaga kasi kelangang maging art is cool ni teacher para interesting yung class. ewan. naaawa ako sa kanya. wala syang nasabi para sa buhay nya. yun ang akala ko. puro akala. hindi ko naman talaga sya kilala nang lubusan. at bakit ko maiisip ang mga ganun? wala akong karapatan. pero paplantsahin ko na gusot ko. simula ngayon. uhmmm... sa sabado pa pala, ok?

hp

bagong line ng printer? hindi. matagal na to. ito yung mga panahong pumapasok ako sa eskwela sa ibang paaralan. nakikiupo sa mga upuang de kahoy dahil sa puno naman talaga yung inuupuan ko. nakikitambay sa damuhan sa gitna ng mga dambuhalang tinatapos pang mga gusali. nakikikain sa maliit pero malinis na kusina sa likod ng animo'y abandonadong bodega. san ka na ba? bakit dun ka pa tumawag? sino boypren mo doon?

pantalon

naluluma ang lahat. pati nga mukha, di maipagkakaila. tumatakbo ang oras. nananahan o di kaya'y titigil lang kung me dahilan. pero sa totoo lang, tayo ang me kapasidad na magpatigil nito. kumukupas ang lahat. pati yung pantalon. pero ang PCSO, walang kupas!

does god exist?

that is the question. itong patunay: gab exists.

anak ng tula-dulaan

aba naman! di ako papayag. kelangang yun na. dugo't pawis ang aking inalay para sa pag-ibig kong wagas sa tinubuang lupa. tama! me kopya ako sa email ko. payn. tenk yu. pwedeng net access?

amoy arsenic

sinong naligo ng pabango ha? obyus. mating season na ba? ay... si sir ba kamo? kasi naman osmosis is a specialized diffusion. cells can be classified as hypertonic, hypotonic or isotonic. ako ay ironic pero anemic. i hate arsenic. ginisa ba naman kami sa defense.

webbed feet

this is for you mr. andersen. you who made us think in class. for your big words, swallow and bogus. and we were never the same again. you listening with your brown eyes. you wearing your head through the skin. tanong lang: diba ang swallow uri ng ibon? tsaka diba yung bogus yung sinusundot sa ilong? tulad nito? hekhek... saya.

paparapapa... lab ko to!

tip para sa mga estudyanteng nagnanais maging non-repeater sa klase: pag moving exam, wag nang mag-aral! useless. trust me condom. pag humingi ng papel na 1/2 lengthwise sa kaklase, wag kalimutang magpasalamat. mangyari man, bumalik saglit at magpakyewt bago kumaripas ng takbo. kung mararapatin, pwedeng i-kiss na lang. sige nga. try mo nga? tapos, walang panama ke jordan ang mga classic moves. pwedeng magpakadamsel in distress pero wag sosobrahan. baka isiping tatanga-tanga ka. magsimula sa ganitong paraan: "talaga? ito na ba yung stage na me ring na ang falciparum? yung bale marami ng ameboid? kasi kinain nung parasite yung utak ko kaya you sweep me off my feet.." pag binigyan kang walis o kaya deadma sya. i-challenge sa isang arm wrestling. and then you will live jollibeely together! mismo.

mayumi

ha? so andito na naman si bloody mary shelley! san tayo ngayon? dun pa rin sa dating pwesto. basta kaw magbabayad ng bill. mahal yata tip ko. hoy victor! sasali ka ba dun sa tv? sama mo ako sa mga pangarap mo kasi kung hindi ilaglag kita sa publiko!

ilang tulog na lang

2006-06-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

graduate na sila. ang taunang aklat ng ng. si marcos. bakit ata. me bago. bakit ako. naku wag na malalaman ni winston na interesado ako ke mcdonald pero masarap talaga yung patatas sa ano bang harap ng parke dun sa gitna ng siyudad ng durian? oo. mahal daw dun. oorder pa sana akong wine kaso kako baka namang sabihing abusado akot pinapakain na nga lang eh ambisyosa pang loser kang nilalang ng sangkakutuhan. at umuulan at pawi ang gutom kasi naman yung waiter parang naghahamon ng away tapos yung babae smile nang smile wala naman akong tip. tas me exhibition. tas makakatabi mo sa pagkain yung neknek na anak ng kumpanya na kala mo naman kung sinong magaling at gwapong me ibubuga naman kasi magaling nga sya at gwapo. naku kanya naman pala di ako nabusog kaya umalis tuloy ako kasi yung heels ko kelangan nang papaghingahin kasi napapagod din tas labas yung dila humihingal at kumain rin pala. masarap talaga yung patatas tas andun din ang all time favorite kong denny's mom's blueberry cheesecake. tita, 'pagbalot nyo nga ako nito at tsaka nito damihan mo ha at sabayan mo na rin ng porkchop ano ubos na ang bulalo wala na ba akong maorder parokya kang first day high kaya funk you!

tarantado kang maganda pang buhok mo kesa samin

2006-06-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

ikaw naman kasi! bakit ka pa kasi dumating sa buhay kong linta kang hayop ka nematoda! nakita ko pa talaga kung pano mo hinablot yung siopao sa katabi mong walang makain anak ka ng pakilala mo nga ako sa mga gumawa sayo't malaman kung san galing yang gandang lahing magpapa-invitro na lang ako! sagutin moko loko kang alam ko namang does god exist pero sa totoo lang kahit pa sa utak man o sa realidad e di hamak namang di ako nag-eexist sa buhay ng me buhay kasi balitang-balita na wala karawng panama sa naku matulog na lang ulit ako't sabado ulit hindi ko na maiwasang pangarapin ang susunod na kabanata para masaya ang san linggo na po sila san na pala si jim paredes?

tiga marikina ako, ano ba!

2006-06-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

ok lang naman yan tita... mahirap nga naman pala yang kinalalagyan mo. di ko rin ata maarok. pero ok lang. pagtiyagaan mo na. hamo't makakarating ka rin sa kung san ka man dadalhin ng linting mong kurso. eh bakit kasi dinissove yan e? plano ko pa naman sanang magdouble major double dead chicken double pati double yung nakikita ko. kelangan ko ata ng glasses! of milk kasi may osteo na ako? doc, ilang years pa itatagal ko?

on the bench at 6th

2006-06-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

kinda weird for the two us. always bump into each other. no plans whatsoever. just plain crossing of paths. and i like it. we get to see the view from the top. the floor is ours. and we scream our lungs out. it's funny seeing people on the street. and we laugh and smile. and then we sigh. but then we eventually walk back to where we came from and we'll soon fade into the growing crowd just in time when the bell rings. she's grown. but you weren't there to witness it.

jonathan

2006-06-28T19:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes you get surprise with things or situations you least expect to happen. i don't know when this happened really, about a week maybe. not pretty sure. i was kinda into the school thing cos summer's over for me and i had to get on doing business. yeah. like whatever. so, as i was saying, i went to the store to buy some food or was it yarn that i was supposed to buy cos i made gemma stitch my notebooks for me cos i was darn lazy or just damn stupid to do it myself? absolutely, the yarn. and i think a bottle of peach tea i think. and then for just about ten seconds, when i was claiming my bag at the baggage counter. where else would i get my bag? yeah. i saw someone so familiar, way too familiar, someone i never expected. with the same clothes. never changed i guess. at least, for the clothes. he always wears a vest over his shirt. one thing i noticed though, he seems happy. blissful. i would understand that he would already forget my name cos it's been years. but then i was shocked to hear that he called me. by my name! its like he knew me well enough to say my nick. i felt a family in him. i went off the store feeling a child again. that child who always stayed in school because her sundo deliberately never came on time or that child who loved her school that much she never wants to go home in time. i guess i pretty much miss my school. especially the people there. particularly him.

gray matter that's my shirt and i'm wearing it now

2006-06-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

under the lens: kigwa

2006-06-18T13:32:00.001+08:00

yeah. imagine. 9 hours. sitting in those cramped stools. no wonder everybody's changing positions and chairs just so they won't feel their butt getting heated up. it's a new world for me. considering everybody's, not really a new face, but a new personality to know. i need not know them really. but damn it. i have to. argh. there's only one thing in looking forward to days like this. yeah. it's tough. but heck. it's the real thing. what do you call this? ah.. ascaris lumbricoides

world cup

2006-06-18T13:26:00.000+08:00

i've been meaning to write bout this one. it all came to me when we had free paper view at home. yeah. thanks to our neighbor, whom i don't know who really got the subscription.. er connection. so anyway, dwtv is a pretty interesting page to go to in the airwaves. whatever. so yeah. for about months now. and i haven't really gotten to writing about it. so, i'm writing about it now.

manong dante

2006-06-17T14:20:00.000+08:00

rockstar

2006-06-17T14:13:00.000+08:00

bookhorse

2006-06-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

ei whorse! pick up the laundry and press 'em! and oh.. yeah.. uhmm.. line up for me and get me my big books ok? tnx. pay you if i can.. bye:)

taric acid

2006-06-14T19:18:00.001+08:00

what's the chemical formula for taric acid? yeah. i thought you ought to know. same here. i din't know what they were up to not until i saw their real insides. what's the point of arguing when you wouldn't listen to our points? even if you did, you wouldn't probably recognize any of our unsaid thoughts cos you were all so damn busy nursing your foot madame, my foot! oh crap. you're just so lucky i wasn't there cos you would exactly hear what you have always not wanted to listen from us! and for that i give you a star? ha! a crater is what you'll get.. yeah. of the moon.

waiter, medyas please!

2006-06-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

one year na rin kasi. yung binigay nyo naloose thread na rin. bumigay na sa tinagal ng panahon. salamat nang lubusan ha? ok lang. wala namang panis na medyas sa mainit na pag-alala. wala yun! o cge. bukas.. dadalhin ko na yung napagkasunduan. para naman sobrang lamang ka na. oo. malamang.

life cockcoaches

2006-06-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

nagtatampo rin pala ang araw? kala ko kasi hindi. nabigla tuloy ako nung sinabi nya yun. kako, "ha, totoo?" akala ko lang kasi ako yung me ganung naramdaman. pero di naman pala. pati nga yung palaka eh. sabi pa, "kokak, kokak.." tugon ko sa kanya, "rarf rarf.." oo. mga hayop talaga kausap ko pwera na lang ke kapatid na araw.

can i have you as my trusty shoes?

2006-06-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

wala pa kasi akong sapatos tas pasukan na. kainis naman. yung tiyan ko pa nagmamaktol. pinakain na ngang sobra-sobra, naimbyerna pa! pengeng antacid! fife? umuutot ka pa ba? eh si mingkay patay na rin. nagsama na ba kayo? ha? sa langit? biyaheng langet? ampanget! so, aalis ako ngayon papuntang shoe mart kasi nagbebenta silang mart. ehem. pasensya na. nagamit ko yung word. ows rily? pangalan pala yun! akalain mo ng naman.. boypren mo pa. tas crush ko pa man din. i would just want to clarify: ex-crush. at this moment, ako po ay isang malaking tigyawat na tumubo sa isang kabute. ampanget! 8 units. add 5 units. equals 13. pagbigyan na po sana ako! rico yan san ka? kunin mo na ako!

6 mos.

2006-06-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

ano kaya gagawin namin nun? wala na halos ang mga engkanto. naghibernate na silang lahat. papagawa kaya kaming pool sa ilalim ng slide. kewl. yun talagang gusto ko. kaso maraming nagmamalinis eh, lahat naman kuto. parasito. duh. mapag-aralan nga behavior nila. lord, bigay mo na sa akin yang sked na yan.. pramis ko di nako magdadrugs ulit. este magdideal. slight na lang. peksman. mamatay man yung pusa na gagamitin sa susunod na buwan.

side comment: eeeww.. she fell for him?! he's way too gay! it's obvious. may pahalik-halik pa tong mga neknek na to. titigil ko na kasi malapit lang sila. wah...

maghintay ka lang sa baybayin

2006-06-08T13:42:00.001+08:00

pag naku! ako nagka dolyar bibilhin ko yung lahat ng kopya nyan tas ipamimigay ko sa mga nagsisimula pa lang sa mundo. bagay kasi yung theme eh. oo. tas, nag-uusap sila sa mga tongues of fire ba yun. ewan. ang saya. tas, sasabihin ko nang buong yabang: I came from the country of carabaos and coconuts, the Philippines!

neknek mo raw sabi ni jacky

2006-06-08T13:37:00.000+08:00

title yan. sa tulang ginawa ng gifted child ng kaibigan kong kabayong si whorse. akala nya kasi mababribe nya ko. consolation. kasi ang langyang baked mac because according to the tikablang eh me generation gap kaya yung mga letseng koreana ang nailagay. ang feeling ko tuloy may discrimnation. kasi feeling ko para di mafeel ng mga salagubang na discriminated sila kami na tuloy ang naagrabayado. aken lang ha, wala na sanang mac, spaghetti na lang o di kaya carbo.. carbohydrates... nyhaha..

control k

2006-06-08T13:31:00.000+08:00

dati rati nung dati sa lab ginagawa lang namin eh iupdate ang friendster dahil yun pa lang naman ang kapanahunan ng hinayupak na fad na to kaya naalala ko tuloy nung one time nung namigay si sir ng free quiz sa amin kaya naloka kaming imemorize by the heart ang mga walang kwentang control keys na yan pero sa totoo lang laking Nido rin ako!

jew.el

2006-06-08T13:18:00.000+08:00

no comment

2006-06-08T13:07:00.000+08:00

natupad

2006-06-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

mas malayo pa sa buong light years papuntang araw ang pangarap kong yun. saklap nga lang di kasama yung tropa kung kinabibilangan ng walis tingting at istar apol. masaya. lalo na pag may payaso tas teacher ng kalabaw. feeling ko tuloy pgymy seahorse ako. anliit ko pero hinahanap. kasi? rare. pero uutangin ko pa sa WB ang pantubos ko sa ransom na aabutin akong isang milyong lightyears lampas pa ng milky way andromeda galaxy big bang theory.